paperandemotion101
 
You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Instead of slamming down the phone girl, for the hundredth time
I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call
When divided we stand baby, united we fall

Got the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know I can't fight this flame
You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time

Without you
One night alone Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide

I don't wanna fight no more, I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other baby, like an act of war
I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between the eyes

There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time

 
acceptance 03/29/2010
 
March 28 2010 when he told me that he loves her.. I was shocked and bit confused. I've never expect that this soon... Maybe i'm not worthy enough.. It's very hard for me to think that he'll just replace me in his life in just a snapped. I don;t want to blame myself or having gripe and atonement for him. This will be so hard for me. I always told myself that I am ready to see him with somebody else but apparently i'm not. I know that the only thing i can do for myself is accept the fact and learn live to my life alone,.. We can't force someone to stay. And no one stays forever.. only God know why he let this happen. It's just a matter of why now? Now that i'm still loving him,.. I don't want to blame myself. Nobody knows that we're still seeing each other. I let him go because he wanted to,.. he gave me up so easily without thinking about what i might gonna feel.. until it came up to the point that I also decided to give up,... It's true, that if you still love someone don't give him/ her up.. don't try to count all your efforts cos,.. the measure of love is the same as measure of sacrifices. I do love him so much that until now i'm still hoping he'll come back to me. It never comes to my mind that he will forget me this way.. Sana kahit nasaan man sya masaya sya. I hope he's happy with his desisyon. I was hurt when he told me that he loves her cause she's already there to pick him up when he's down,.. cause she always listens and understands everything... I hope he realize that I just wanted to be heard.. Ako nalang kasi lagi ang mali sa-aming dalawa.. Ayokong isiping kinalimutan na nya ako at kahit anu pang gawin ko hindi na magbabago pa ang desisyon nya. Now I have to live alone.. I cannot replace him here in heart.. hindi ko kaya.. 
 
Rejection 02/20/2010
 
Everybody hates rejection, it occurs when an individual is  deliberately excluded in a social relationship or social interaction that leads number of psychological consequences such as loneliness, sadness, depression, low self-esteem, conformity anxiety and many more. Nevertheless, rejection can become a problem when it is prolonged or consistent, when the relationship is important, or when the individual is highly sensitive to rejection.

Rejection is one of the problem when an individual was involved in a relationship. It can cause solitude and emptiness. Love gives us confidence to stand out and be proud in front of other people,  however it also give us fear, fear of losing, fear of being alone, fear of rejection, fear of everything.

Fear can only conquered by acceptance. It is being happy and contented to what you are and what will you become after the tragedies happening in your life. First step of moving forward on a new life coming in your way. For me, it's the best way I ever did. Acceptance is the best medicine to those who cannot move on. It isn't easy to accept the fact that they will never be the same again, it may need time for them to accept their failure,some take it for just a while, but some of them took years before they 'd totally recovered.
 
First 02/18/2010
 
There's a lot of instance that might coming in our lives, "we never know when our time is up 'till it's over". We can say that this time is ours but will it be forever ours? We don't need to do everything to make someone stay, because no matter how hard we try to keep on holding onto someone, the more they want us out of their life. People often says that if we don't want to hurt ourselves then guard our hearts. That's the best way we can do, but how long? I really hate fairy tales, 'coz it only teaches us to dream of a perfect love that really don't exist. And apparently never happens on  reality..  Why does all fairy tales always ends in "happy ending"?  which is different in real life.. love doesn't always come in to a happy ending.. Why does all people always give their all just to win someone's love.. Is it really fair to give and give and don't receive anything in return?

There's a lot of questions running on my mind, one thing really hooks me when someone asks me, why we often fall for someone who really doesn't deserve to be love? I answered her,.. "because at first we never know that the guy we choose to love is the wrong one, until we learn to accept them and get blinded by the love we had for them..".. some says it's okay to suffer because of love as long as it's true, and I really agree with that.. I have been in love and fall so deep. So deep that i can't stand up on my own after that big loss. i love there's no such word of forgetting, only acceptance. The heart never forgets even though we almost find someone to live with our lives, acceptance can only free us from fear. Fear of seeing someone you love happy with someone else.. And only acceptance we keep us from hoping and wishing that, sooner or later the one we love will
I hate those rumors who always says that it's easy to love and let go.