I trusted him with all of me.. But I end up very disappointed. I love him to be honest to myself. And I will accept his past no matter how bad it is. I know that i should have known him so well before loving him. And I admit my mistake. But I guess it isn't too late for us. I was still hoping that everything between us will be settled and everything will be back to the way they were.
..I love him so much, I need to hear his part. And I know, he doesn't have any intention to hurt me just like this.. Pilit naman iniintindi ng makitid kong utak ung lahat ng bagay na nangyayari sa'min pero kung talagang wala syang balak mag-explain sa lahat ng nalaman ko, maybe it's better for us to separate our ways nalang talaga.
That night gusto ko na talagang umiyak dahil nasaktan ako syempre dahil akala ko siya na ang pinakamatino sa'ming dalawa. nakakalungkot isipin na hindi maganda ung naging resulta ng pakikipagrelasyon ko sakanya pero sana malaman nya na sobrang mahal na mahal ko sya. Hindi man nya ito nakikita or naa-appreciate,.. willing naman akong ipakita at iparamdam sakanya ito araw-araw, pero kahit siya hindi nya ko binibigyan ng chance at isa un sa pinaka-masakit na part sa relationship namin. Gustuhin ko man ibalilk ung mga bagay-bagay sa dati wala rin silbi dahil kahit siya hindi gumagawa ng effort para mag-work ung relationship namin.. pero kung wala na talaga i shuld try to accept the fact and let him do what really makes him happy...