paperandemotion101
acceptance 03/29/2010
 
March 28 2010 when he told me that he loves her.. I was shocked and bit confused. I've never expect that this soon... Maybe i'm not worthy enough.. It's very hard for me to think that he'll just replace me in his life in just a snapped. I don;t want to blame myself or having gripe and atonement for him. This will be so hard for me. I always told myself that I am ready to see him with somebody else but apparently i'm not. I know that the only thing i can do for myself is accept the fact and learn live to my life alone,.. We can't force someone to stay. And no one stays forever.. only God know why he let this happen. It's just a matter of why now? Now that i'm still loving him,.. I don't want to blame myself. Nobody knows that we're still seeing each other. I let him go because he wanted to,.. he gave me up so easily without thinking about what i might gonna feel.. until it came up to the point that I also decided to give up,... It's true, that if you still love someone don't give him/ her up.. don't try to count all your efforts cos,.. the measure of love is the same as measure of sacrifices. I do love him so much that until now i'm still hoping he'll come back to me. It never comes to my mind that he will forget me this way.. Sana kahit nasaan man sya masaya sya. I hope he's happy with his desisyon. I was hurt when he told me that he loves her cause she's already there to pick him up when he's down,.. cause she always listens and understands everything... I hope he realize that I just wanted to be heard.. Ako nalang kasi lagi ang mali sa-aming dalawa.. Ayokong isiping kinalimutan na nya ako at kahit anu pang gawin ko hindi na magbabago pa ang desisyon nya. Now I have to live alone.. I cannot replace him here in heart.. hindi ko kaya.. 
 


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